Well, I’m not sure what is going on now.
When I first started this blog, I was totally unsure about where it would end up. Although it would have been great to have achieved about 1,000,000 followers and be lauded as some sort of journalistic genius, I more realistically assumed that I would get a trickle of viewers and that it would naturally die out. However, I appeared to get a few regular visitors and a few people who were genuinely interested in trying to work out the Amanda Todd story. But now, for some reason, there has been a steady increase in the amount of people coming to this blog on a daily basis. Yesterday, for instance, the blog got over 800 views. But I’m not really sure why.
I thought that, to a certain extent, I had reached a conclusion. Not a 100% certain conclusion – there were still many unanswered questions – but I felt that this blog had described at least a version of the story that was truer than anything else available. And for me, in a way, that was enough.
At the very beginning, I thought that the whole story was so full of inconsistencies that it was fake. I simply couldn’t believe – or maybe didn’t want to believe – that a young girl could get herself so involved in the darker side of the Internet without someone stepping in to rescue her. Part of me still likes to think that 12-14 year old girls are still mainly involved with the likes of Justin Bieber and One Direction, interspersed with reading Harry Potter and Enid Blyton. I have that sort of built-in fairy tale belief that prefers to think that the world should be more like ‘Little House on the Prairie’ than ‘Whorehouse on my Street’. But if only.
A piece of advice. If any of you out there ever think about writing a blog about the darker side of things – don’t. It’s soul destroying. Not only does it take you to places where you would rather not be, it leads to an inner malaise because there is not much you can do about it. To a certain extent, I can shrug off the death threats, but it’s a worry that people go to such lengths to behave irrationally. And some of the things said about me on Facebook and elsewhere are simply tedious. But it’s very difficult to shake off the strange mixture of anger and frustration caused by the absolute stupidity of people involved, from the likes of the police all the way to parents. It disheartens me to have read so many blogs and comments from parents who seem to reach the conclusion that there is nothing they can do, so why bother. And it frustrates me that idiotic authorities have madly sought new laws to prevent things that have been going on under their noses, whilst not vehemently pursuing the likes of BlogTV and others to clamp down on the proliferation of child nudity.
But this blog has now taken a new turn. At the very beginning, I asked for comments and help in order to get to the truth, but not much came forward. There were things that I could guess at, but I could find no supporting evidence. I had a view that Amanda’s online nudity continued past the December 2010 date – the pictures of her seemed to show her being a bit older, but I could not be certain. There were hints that the public had got involved, but the dates available (November 2010 and November 2011) didn’t fully make sense. The 2010 intervention was obvious, but I had assumed that December 23rd 2010 was the end date – it wasn’t. But this sort of ties in with why a ‘stalker’ should turn up twice in the story – once at the beginning in 2010, and then again a year later.
If anyone has been paying close attention, I have a new commenter – Roy. He has commented on nearly every post, and supplied precisely the sort of information I was looking for. I am very grateful for all this. Unfortunately, one of the things I have learned from all this is to trust no-one. I can’t just accept Roy’s word for things (sorry Roy!) so I will have to do a bit more research. However, he has supplied a lot to work with.
One thing I will leave you with for now. It is quite obvious that nothing even close to the truth has been told by the mainstream press, and some of what has been reported as the truth is a hotch-potch of hearsay and rumour. My initial aim in this blog was to establish a source of truth about the whole thing. We’re not there yet – but I will keep trying.
Thanks to all my supporters, and thank you for staying with the story.