Good morning. Or good afternoon, depending on where you are in the world. The saga continues. I apologise if today’s post rambles. My mind is full of conflicting thoughts, so I have just gone into a free flow mode.
For the first time in a long time, I really confess to not having a clue as to where to go with this blog. I think I am in some sort of delayed shock. I have always known that there was something strange about this story. Part of me actually wanted it to be true; I actually wanted to be mistaken. No-one wants to believe that a young girl, on her own or aided by her mother, has lied to such an extent, let alone done all the things mentioned in this blog. But now it’s clear – it’s all a fraud.
A few months ago, I never knew about the existence of things like BlogTV, TinyChat, Omegle or even worse sites like cameracaptures. I had never heard of the Capper community. It’s all come as quite a surprise. And not a nice one.
To be honest, my mind is in a whirl. There are so many unanswered questions.
Is this a part of a greater fraud? I have now chosen that word – fraud – because that’s what it is. The Amanda Todd Legacy Fund and the Vancouver Foundation have maliciously used this story for publicity and financial gain, knowing full well that is based on lies. Just how great those lies are, we have yet to find out.
The police have said very little. They have stood by and watched shocking online vigilante behaviour almost in silence. They have let real life and online threats of violence proliferate.
The media – the Vancouver Sun, mostly, and the Canadian TV broadcasters – have shamelessly profited from this story, continuing to use the ‘Amanda Todd’ tag to gain readers and viewers, and I dread to think of the income gained from YouTube videos and the R.I.P. pages, most of which are now being used to promote anything from life-revived (a suspicious online website set up to gain advertising revenue) to free give-aways encouraging people to give their details away. It is truly disgraceful. And it needs to be stopped.
I have lost sleep over whether or not I am doing the right thing here. Sure, there has been a lot of attention brought towards bullying, but we now know that this was not at the core of Amanda’s problems. But, in fact, there has been a huge amount of bullying CAUSED by this fiasco. The Amanda Todd Reporting Team (on Facebook) along with Amanda Todd’s Safe Haven have wrongly persecuted people simply for voicing their opinion. And various new groups – like Bikers Against Bullies – are simply uneducated and uninformed hooligans out to ‘expose’ pedophiles. This is a dangerous move in society – lynch mobs out to get people who, without any evidence, they might choose to victimise.
Attention has been brought to suicide. But even that has been misused. By implying that Amanda is ‘in a better place’, that she had a one-way ticket to Paradise, that she is in Heaven, loads of kids, maybe on the verge of making a fatal decision, will think they are doing the right thing. After all, Heaven will be seen as a much better option from the imagined Hell they are living in. And kids who are lonely, isolated, unloved, will see that maybe, just maybe, it’s better to die and get all the attention post-mortem.
Attention has been brought to mental health. But not much. The Amanda Todd supporters film of choice – ‘Bully’ – never mentions the fact that the person at the centre of the story was mentally ill. And people don’t see Amanda’s choices as being based on poor mental health – they seek to blame an imaginary predator.
But what is missing?
Does any of the story concentrate on the dreadful parental neglect? No. The fact that Amanda got away with so much – flaunting herself online, stripping and masturbating, drinking, taking drugs and having sex – all this seems to have been air-brushed out of the picture.
And for me, perhaps the worse thing. Apart from a few references to BlogTV in the gutter-press reporting of Patrick McGuire and Cooper Fleishman, no-one has sought to tackle the major problem of the webcam sites that encourage young girls and boys to do dreadful things online. I shake my head in despair. By avoiding the truth about what Amanda did, important issues are not being dealt with.
Regarding my blog. People say it’s all lies. That is ridiculous. Many of those who complain don’t even bother to read one post, let alone all the rest. I have tried to provide as much information as possible. The lunatics suggest that I have photo-shopped evidence. I can barely get used to using ‘Paint’. The marijuana? A quote from Carol Todd. The drinking? Another quote from Carol Todd. The online nudity? Most of the pictures have been supplied. I have held back from providing the worse ones here.
In the last few days, I am proud of a couple of things.
I tracked down the cameracaptures site a long time ago. I held back. The last thing I wanted to do was to trawl through the terribly upsetting pictures of hundreds of young kids doing foolish things online. It’s heart-breaking. I can tell you now – it damages the soul.
But, after so many people denied the existence of the video, and so many people who did know of it felt powerless, I decide to act. I looked for the actual video – thank God I didn’t have to look too far – and published it here, with links to how to complain. After two or three days, it went. For the first time, I felt like I had achieved something. Even the ensuing online harassment can’t take that away from me. I have left the connection there. After all, it’s not just Amanda. There are hundreds of pictures. Please keep complaining. Hiding away from these things does not solve the problem. Actions do.
Secondly, I think that the stalker story has now been completely destroyed. I still have investigation to do (when will it ever end?) but I think that I can firmly say that the stalker/predator/pedophile story as reported in the video is complete nonsense. In future posts, I will explain EXACTLY what happened. But know this – the Amanda Todd story is almost entirely false. There is barely a shred of truth in it – if any at all.
I should mention my source. I have paced up and down about this. Internet paranoia dictates that I shouldn’t trust him (or her, for that matter). My source knows a Hell of a lot. It’s taken me by surprise. I originally thought that it was just someone piecing together bits of stuff found online to make up a story, but as I’ve said before, liars tend to give themselves away. Although I hold some doubt in my mind, I have 100% trust that the screen caps supplied by my source are true. I trust my source, and thank the person greatly.
The revelations from the screen caps are good. We have specific dates to work on – even the actual time. Amanda has admitted that she already knew about the photos being spread, yet she still continued.
But it’s turned this blog into an entirely different ball game. I have to take things seriously now – that’s why this post rambles a bit. Regular readers will know that I have interspersed some of the seriousness with humour and nonsense. If I hadn’t, I think I might have gone mad (too late, I hear you say!).
I have written – twice this week – to the police. I have written to the Vancouver Foundation again. Will they respond? I don’t think so. I have found out more information as to how people can block the torrent of danger from the Internet – I need to supply that information in the best way I can.
But it’s not all bad. For every 100 haters, I gain one new online supporter. I now have a handful (including me, it makes five!). But you know what they say – quality beats quantity.