Today, a video from Thorn.

After the news about a guy called Matthew Calder, it would seem that this type of video is an unfortunate necessity.


I find it frustrating that this is being termed a ‘fall’. She took her own life, but it would appear that nobody wants to admit that. I am really not sure if that is a good thing or not.

Perhaps Jeremy Clarkson would have told her off for being selfish.

Whatever. With the likes of Falder  around, and the Harvey Weinsteins, and oafs like Clarkson, there is a long way to go.

Amy Bleuel and the Semicolon

This story doesn’t really have a happy ending.

This raises another question about suicide prevention, yet another complication in how to deal with it. Amy Bleuel’s initiative was positive and inspiring. Her death, though, wipes out that positivity, bringing attention to the inner hopelessness that exists for some people.

Things like lighting up purple or getting a tattoo may be well-intentioned, but they are only a small part of any solution. The Amy Bleuel tragedy shows that there is no simple answer, that not every intent has a happy ending.



Cheerleaders likely to make better porn stars

From the article:

But the women found that this wasn’t a type that necessarily translated into the world of porn. The majority of the women they spoke to were “cheerleader types” at school. “Most of them were very comfortable with sex and loved having sex so they just thought that porn was the natural next step,” Gradus says. “They had all seen porn very young and porn was very normalized to them so it didn’t seem like a big deal.”

Media madness


Not sure what is going on here, as most of the news about it is from Indonesia.

This article is also pretty much insane.

Surely the people involved have to be retarded?

Following the first Guardian article, it gets even crazier.

‘She persuaded the student to wear a blindfold whenever they met, and wore a large strap-on prosthetic penis in order to dupe the woman into having penetrative sex.

The jury heard that the complainant not only wore the blindfold during sex but also for at least 100 hours when the pair were just hanging out – going for drives, sunbathing and even “watching” films together.’






Amanda Todd wasn’t on her own



As the Coban trial continues, it gets more shocking. Apparently he had 204,000 porn pics on his hard drive, he was in trouble with the Grijze Wolven. As most of it is in Dutch it’s a pain to work out the details. Add in the thing about 7 gay Australians and it starts getting too weird.

Meanwhile I’ve reissued these pics from the catalogue. The clip is actually far worse than this can show and makes the BlogTV episode look mild. It’s really this clip that puzzles me most as it’s so far away from the ‘it was a brief flash’ storyline and involves another kid who was very much part of Amanda’s scene but never gets a mention.

Because of this clip, Amanda’s BlogTV shows and so on, it’s tough to match the current narrative of one action followed by years of torment.

Just in case anyone thinks this isn’t Amanda, then OK, you’re entitled to that. Just ask Carol Todd though – she’ll remember that Amanda had a pair of trousers (or ‘pants’ as they are called in the USA) with ‘CHEER’ written on the bottom. And she’ll recognise the soft toy. And Amanda’s old bedrooom.

It looks as if there are a few latecomers to the blog, so rather tediously I have to re-visit old news.

Latest news


Good grief! There is at least one other person out there still interested.

I was sent this link:

It’s Amanda’s old isabella100555 YouTube account.

Anything to be gleaned from it? We have the August 18, 2007 start date which, if memory serves me right, must be the earliest occurrence of Amanda online, making her aged 10, nearly 11. That does tie in with the story.

The rest is a bit vague. It shows she’s 13 when she last described herself, and as usual she’s given away contact info.

There’s one comment – ‘You gotta do some of that sexy dancing you were doing on blogtv!  ‘. Don’t be put off by the odd dates. When it says ‘3 months ago’ or whatever, I think that’s from the time the info got archived. I have a feeling that the isabella100555 identity got killed off either some time around late 2010/early 2011 after the BlogTV/cops-on-doorstep fiasco, or that it may have lasted through to May 2011, when Amanda was told to clear every bit of her existence after getting into more trouble on Dialogoo.

Anyways. The person also sent me some great perplexities which may or may not be of interest.

Here you can go across and see an oddity:

Amanda Todd

updated her profile song

Jun 19, 2014 at 09:21 PM

How much fakery is going on? It could be that someone has gone to great efforts to replicate the myspace account, but who knows?

So just to confuse things even more, YouTube has recorded Amanda’s playlists for foreverdaddysgirl101 and thesomebodytoknow as having been updated in 2014.

btw – I can’t seem to get any access to further comments from the channel – the computer seems to just hang if I click on ‘next’. And subscriber/friend lists just return a 404.

Oh well.

So I send thanks to my latest contributor.

Merry Christmas!